Wow I can't believe I've broken my "promise"! I've been away for quite some time. So much has happened I don't even know where to begin! I've come back coz I was planning on updating my travel blog but ended up logging in at this account. I guess that only means I've also forgotten about which account is which. :)
I'm not going to stay too long coz I have to update that other account. My BFF just gave me a go signal to start with the arrangement for our Europe trip! Woohoo!!! But before I go let me just tell you that I've been promoted. Finally!!!! Then I've also travelled for work since last time I was here and it looks like I'll be going away again twice to one of our countries. It's all good. Now all I need is my JL!!!! Ok gotta go!!! Will tell you more when I get back. Hopefully sooner rather than later! :)
Saturday, June 23, 2012
Tuesday, February 28, 2012
Need to get back on track
Looks like I've been derailed. I'm back to obsessing about JL. I think it's my friend's fault that I'm obsessing again about JL. She's just sooooo pro-JL that it's hard for me to move forward and forget about him. She tries to keep me hopeful and see things in a different, more positive light. She told me that JL told her that he likes me and that he thinks I'm hot! This is such a vicious vicious cycle that I don't know if I'll ever get out of. I just keep coming back. I've totally lost any chemistry that I felt for Mr. Schu. :( He's just too far away! :(
WHY?! Why do I keep coming back?!!!
I was "brainwashed" again yesterday. So, I felt really sure that the reason why he kept mentioning "second marriage" and posting food on FB was for my benefit. Why do i think that way? Anyways, since I'm feeling really good and positive that he does have the hots for me I passed by his office and said hi. Then I told him "why are you wearing your glasses" for obvious lack of things to say. I just get tongued-tied around him and always say the wrong things. Ugh!!! I feel so stupid! I'm not normally like this. Guys/people like me coz I always have something interesting and witty to say. But not when around him. DARN! So, he said "why not". Then I replied "you look better with glasses anyway". Then I left. What was that about? I was given a compliment and not complimenting at the same time! Does it mean that he looks bad without glasses? So stupid! Ugh!!!! It's so frustrating.
Now that this had happened, I'm so really to move on. I hope I'd get that job in another department. Somewhere far away from him. Somewhere where I can't make a fool of myself and say stupid things. yesterday I was hoping I could stay and even talked to my boss about it. I change my mind. I think I'm ready to move on. He just doesn't give me a chance.
My loan was also approved. So, I'm waiting for our benefits section to ask me to pick up the check. I'm pretty excited about it. I'm glad Mel is still here so we can decide on the right interior for the place. I'm excited!!! Another project to concentrate on! I have to stop obsessing about JL. Seriously!!!! Besides, I don't wann break Mr. Schu's heart. I was kinda still leading him on. I really don't know. I still like him.
WHY?! Why do I keep coming back?!!!
I was "brainwashed" again yesterday. So, I felt really sure that the reason why he kept mentioning "second marriage" and posting food on FB was for my benefit. Why do i think that way? Anyways, since I'm feeling really good and positive that he does have the hots for me I passed by his office and said hi. Then I told him "why are you wearing your glasses" for obvious lack of things to say. I just get tongued-tied around him and always say the wrong things. Ugh!!! I feel so stupid! I'm not normally like this. Guys/people like me coz I always have something interesting and witty to say. But not when around him. DARN! So, he said "why not". Then I replied "you look better with glasses anyway". Then I left. What was that about? I was given a compliment and not complimenting at the same time! Does it mean that he looks bad without glasses? So stupid! Ugh!!!! It's so frustrating.
Now that this had happened, I'm so really to move on. I hope I'd get that job in another department. Somewhere far away from him. Somewhere where I can't make a fool of myself and say stupid things. yesterday I was hoping I could stay and even talked to my boss about it. I change my mind. I think I'm ready to move on. He just doesn't give me a chance.
My loan was also approved. So, I'm waiting for our benefits section to ask me to pick up the check. I'm pretty excited about it. I'm glad Mel is still here so we can decide on the right interior for the place. I'm excited!!! Another project to concentrate on! I have to stop obsessing about JL. Seriously!!!! Besides, I don't wann break Mr. Schu's heart. I was kinda still leading him on. I really don't know. I still like him.
Thursday, February 09, 2012
Oh noooo!
Yep, oh no! Mr. Schue is growing on me. I didn't mean for this to happen. I just wanted a distraction from THAT other guy. But, I'm starting to like this distraction. And now, I miss him. My day is not complete anymore if I don't get to talk to him. Yikes! This is bad. This is real bad. Tsk tsk. Where's he anyway? Gosh do I really have to compete with badminton? Ugh! I hope he didn't go straight to bed though without saying good night to me.
On another subject, I missed telling you about a lot of things. BFF is back and she's keeping me busy I guess. Will tell you more about the following when I get the time:
- My trip to Mt. Pulag, Benguet
- BFF's conversation with you-know-who
- The guitar festival where I met Mr. Schue
- The amazing Mr. Schue
- My under-appraised apartment!
On another subject, I missed telling you about a lot of things. BFF is back and she's keeping me busy I guess. Will tell you more about the following when I get the time:
- My trip to Mt. Pulag, Benguet
- BFF's conversation with you-know-who
- The guitar festival where I met Mr. Schue
- The amazing Mr. Schue
- My under-appraised apartment!
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
10 Tips On How To Survive On Mt. Pulag, Benguet, Philippines
Posted: February 1, 2011 in Travel
1. Prepare your hiking gear. Here’s the list: pants, waterproof jacket, raincoat, shoes, tent, flashlight or head lamp and sleeping bag. Optional: altimeter, GPS and stove.
2. Always expect the worst. Make sure your clothes are thick enough to stand extreme cold. Last time, I literally wore the following but still I felt the cold: Two Shirts. Three Sweaters. Thick jacket. Legging maong pants. Two sets of jogging pants. One trekking pants. Rain coat. Bonnet or Cap. A pair of gloves. Three pairs of socks.
So, its up to you to secure anything that will keep you really warm; make sure they’re handy. It is better to be paranoid than to suffer hypothermia or altitude dizziness on the mountain helplessly. Expect the worst temperature you can encounter, which may be 2 degrees Celsius and lower!
3. There is a potable water source near Camp Site Two. This is good news since you need not to bring 6 liters of water from Ranger’s Camp to Summit. All you have to do is to keep your bottles handy and you are now ready to taste the natural spring water of Mt. Pulag for free!
4. Observe the Cultural Code of Conduct and the Mountaineer’s Credo. Ms. Emerita Albas a.k.a. Tamiray will conduct a 5-min video and 20-min lecture to climbers before they proceed to hike Mt. Pulag, so listen. Mt. Pulag is considered as a sacred place, therefore for your own safety, follow the rules (aside from gods and goddesses, there are entities in the mountain as observed by our colleague who has the “gift to see the unseen” while our group was trekking at around 1 AM).
5. It is mandatory to get a local guide but the porter is optional. To make things easier, take this advice. As these people will not only watch over you but also inspire you to keep going especially porters who climb with ease the trail while carrying heavy loads you assigned to them!
6. Make your first aid kit available. This must include medicines for fever, colds, cough, pain killers, antihistamine, etc. Take note that Ms. Emerita will assign a first aider for your group aside from the team leader and the sweeper. The role of the first aider is really challenging but it is worth it to help save someone else’s life.
7. When you still feel the cold despite putting all your available clothes on, try to put your poncho (or any thin rain coat) first, then your shirt, jacket and so on. This is effective. I have prevented my cousin from getting hypothermia by doing this.
8. Stay full and warm. Bring ready-to-eat foods like bread and chocolate snacks. Also, canned goods, noodles, lomi, coffee or chocolate drinks. Because the temperature is really low especially between 11 PM until 4 AM, cooking or preparing hot drinks is really helpful in keeping yourself warm. And don’t forget your energy foods and drinks!
9. Group hug will make your friendship strong. Who says group hug is only used to express happiness with friends? Yes, it can also be during dire need- extreme cold- that group hug will help not only to keep your bond closer but also this will save your life!
10. Pray. There is no one who can keep you from harm or save you other than our great God. So, pray not only for your group to see the sea of clouds (hehehe) but also to be safe during your entire stay on Mt. Pulag and as you travel way back home.
1. Prepare your hiking gear. Here’s the list: pants, waterproof jacket, raincoat, shoes, tent, flashlight or head lamp and sleeping bag. Optional: altimeter, GPS and stove.
2. Always expect the worst. Make sure your clothes are thick enough to stand extreme cold. Last time, I literally wore the following but still I felt the cold: Two Shirts. Three Sweaters. Thick jacket. Legging maong pants. Two sets of jogging pants. One trekking pants. Rain coat. Bonnet or Cap. A pair of gloves. Three pairs of socks.
So, its up to you to secure anything that will keep you really warm; make sure they’re handy. It is better to be paranoid than to suffer hypothermia or altitude dizziness on the mountain helplessly. Expect the worst temperature you can encounter, which may be 2 degrees Celsius and lower!
3. There is a potable water source near Camp Site Two. This is good news since you need not to bring 6 liters of water from Ranger’s Camp to Summit. All you have to do is to keep your bottles handy and you are now ready to taste the natural spring water of Mt. Pulag for free!
4. Observe the Cultural Code of Conduct and the Mountaineer’s Credo. Ms. Emerita Albas a.k.a. Tamiray will conduct a 5-min video and 20-min lecture to climbers before they proceed to hike Mt. Pulag, so listen. Mt. Pulag is considered as a sacred place, therefore for your own safety, follow the rules (aside from gods and goddesses, there are entities in the mountain as observed by our colleague who has the “gift to see the unseen” while our group was trekking at around 1 AM).
5. It is mandatory to get a local guide but the porter is optional. To make things easier, take this advice. As these people will not only watch over you but also inspire you to keep going especially porters who climb with ease the trail while carrying heavy loads you assigned to them!
6. Make your first aid kit available. This must include medicines for fever, colds, cough, pain killers, antihistamine, etc. Take note that Ms. Emerita will assign a first aider for your group aside from the team leader and the sweeper. The role of the first aider is really challenging but it is worth it to help save someone else’s life.
7. When you still feel the cold despite putting all your available clothes on, try to put your poncho (or any thin rain coat) first, then your shirt, jacket and so on. This is effective. I have prevented my cousin from getting hypothermia by doing this.
8. Stay full and warm. Bring ready-to-eat foods like bread and chocolate snacks. Also, canned goods, noodles, lomi, coffee or chocolate drinks. Because the temperature is really low especially between 11 PM until 4 AM, cooking or preparing hot drinks is really helpful in keeping yourself warm. And don’t forget your energy foods and drinks!
9. Group hug will make your friendship strong. Who says group hug is only used to express happiness with friends? Yes, it can also be during dire need- extreme cold- that group hug will help not only to keep your bond closer but also this will save your life!
10. Pray. There is no one who can keep you from harm or save you other than our great God. So, pray not only for your group to see the sea of clouds (hehehe) but also to be safe during your entire stay on Mt. Pulag and as you travel way back home.
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
Monday, January 23, 2012
Why oh why?!
As I've mentioned before,I've been trying to avoid JL as a means of self preservation. Nothing is going on, nothing is happening, he's not even asking me out so I don't think anything is gonna happen. Might as well forget about him and move on. Stop being stupid. Just move on, move on, move on!
Anyways, this is not meant to be a rant about me moving on. I actually wanted to prove how difficult it is to really move on if the guy your trying to forget works with you everyday. What's worst, this afternoon when we had our little get-together, he had to squeeze himself into the room and sit beside me. Why oh why?! Then when I said something to one of our colleagues and they were laughingm he tapped my shoulder and said that's below the belt. He was laughing. Then he whispered to me and asked who's the new staff. It was kind intimate and weird coz at first I didn't understand what he was saying. The torture doesn't end there, he had to get a spoon and get a piece of my cupcake! So we're eating from one plate sharing a cupcake! Why why why!!! It's pure torture! God! Unrequited love sucks! REALLY SUCKS BIG TIME! I want him sooooooo freaking bad! And he looked so cute when he blushed earlier. Darn I'm going crazy! Btw, I kinda flirted with him too thru body language. Crossing my legs and letting him take a small peak at my legs.
I'm proud of myself though coz I didn't do anything extraordinary to feed his ego. I was upset with him in the morning coz he was speaking Tagalog which I dunno where he learned. I hate knowing all these stuff. I'd rather be ignorant. :(
Anyways, this is not meant to be a rant about me moving on. I actually wanted to prove how difficult it is to really move on if the guy your trying to forget works with you everyday. What's worst, this afternoon when we had our little get-together, he had to squeeze himself into the room and sit beside me. Why oh why?! Then when I said something to one of our colleagues and they were laughingm he tapped my shoulder and said that's below the belt. He was laughing. Then he whispered to me and asked who's the new staff. It was kind intimate and weird coz at first I didn't understand what he was saying. The torture doesn't end there, he had to get a spoon and get a piece of my cupcake! So we're eating from one plate sharing a cupcake! Why why why!!! It's pure torture! God! Unrequited love sucks! REALLY SUCKS BIG TIME! I want him sooooooo freaking bad! And he looked so cute when he blushed earlier. Darn I'm going crazy! Btw, I kinda flirted with him too thru body language. Crossing my legs and letting him take a small peak at my legs.
I'm proud of myself though coz I didn't do anything extraordinary to feed his ego. I was upset with him in the morning coz he was speaking Tagalog which I dunno where he learned. I hate knowing all these stuff. I'd rather be ignorant. :(
Thursday, January 19, 2012
I'm weak
Earlier on my way home, I've finally succumbed to my weakness. I decided to wait on JL and "bump in him" on my way home so we have time to chat. I was holding my iPod and he he said go on don't mind me, put it on your ears. Told him it's ok I don't wanna be rude. He said thanks. Then he started talking about the PR and that he's pretty that I've done mine since that's what our director was waving at us. Though he said he didn't see what was written there of course. Then he asked me what the staff has said about him. Well, we were not supposed to say anything but I told him I'll tell him if he tells me what they said about me. He said lots of good stuff were told about me and Szasza and that the two of us were pretty much the ones carrying the whole division. It's good news but I wanted more. I've always been the star and I don't wanna share any limelight! I want the freaking highest mark! I need it to get promoted or even considered to be promoted!
So, I told him what the staff feedback was and that it's all good. Nothing negative. He was fishing for more info as to who the staff hate most now. I was already at my car but he stopped and probably wanted to talk some more. But I'm not gonna give it to him. He can't charm me anymore out of my socks. So, I told him he got what he wanted to know and shouldn't ask for anything more. That's what he wanted and I'm not saying anything more. He said fair enough and went on. This time I'm more conscious about being used. I won't be that person anymore. The eager beaver. No way! I have to resist his charms or else I'll go crazy! I won't wait for him again. It's just pathetic!
P.S. I miss my baby! Why isn't he calling? :(
So, I told him what the staff feedback was and that it's all good. Nothing negative. He was fishing for more info as to who the staff hate most now. I was already at my car but he stopped and probably wanted to talk some more. But I'm not gonna give it to him. He can't charm me anymore out of my socks. So, I told him he got what he wanted to know and shouldn't ask for anything more. That's what he wanted and I'm not saying anything more. He said fair enough and went on. This time I'm more conscious about being used. I won't be that person anymore. The eager beaver. No way! I have to resist his charms or else I'll go crazy! I won't wait for him again. It's just pathetic!
P.S. I miss my baby! Why isn't he calling? :(
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